Promise to Lose

A book that reveals the unpredictable nature of love, the kind of love that jolts, grabs and thrills you, that discovers and conceals, that wounds and heals, that seizes you and sets you free. Mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, grandparents, friends & lovers... We all know love and we also know that love is fundamentally imperfect. An intimate trip to the heart of raw emotion.

I did the math yesterday and we’ve been falling asleep and waking up together for over thirty thousand days now, in this same bed where I am now writing to you. Thirty thousand days watching you while you sleep, knowing the cold or the heat of your body, understanding what hurts inside, loving each new wrinkle on your skin. Thirty thousand days of you and me, of this house we once said would be ours (what will be of a house that knows us so well once we’re gone?), of struggles and yearnings, of the sensation that we’re always on the path to becoming just us. Thirty thousand days when everything changed but nothing changed us, and life once forced us to be apart. Thirty thousand days, my old, grumpy and adorable girl. Me, you and the world; everyone we know is now elderly. But we’re still here, even after thirty thousand days- together and for eternity. Thirty thousand days, and I unlearned so many things. Except how to love you.